Small Steps

I am 2 lbs away from my first goal. My first goal was 20 pounds. I have decided that I am going to make 10 pound goals for myself from here on. I think it will be better for my mindset. Even though I have gone down a size in clothe and had to buy some new clothe, I don't see the difference yet. In my eyes, until I look different, I am not getting anywhere.

Tomorrow is the 4th of July. No big picnic plans this year. Next year I hope to have a big picnic full of games, fun, food and friends!

struggling with frustration& fear

It has been a couple weeks since I posted. I am battling frustration. I have lost some, but for all the effort I am not getting much results. I am not going to give up, just need to keep a positive look on it.

I started walking outside more in addition to still using the "wii active." However, I have a little problem with that because I am terrified of snakes and I have seen one on almost every walk. Alive, not crushed on the road by a tire which is how I prefer to see them. For snake lovers, I am sorry. I do not want to hate them, I am just so afraid that I can't get over it.

Yesterday, as I am walking along the side of the road, it starts to slither out onto the road right in front of me. I jumped back, had a mini freak out, and turned around walking back home in the center of the road when possible. I love to walk but this will be a problem for me.

mini meltdown

Yesterday morning I went to use the wii to workout and no power......nothing. I went through the day thinking my wii was broken and what would I do. It was still under warrenty to be sent back, but sending things back is a hassle and I am not patient. Brian seen the "freaking out" look in my face and went to investigate. After unplugging the wires and hooking it back up again...there was power. Brian was my knight in shining armor.

scrapbooking???

I made my blog address scrapbooking themed because I thought that is what I would focus on. My weight loss attempt has been taking center stage. I will be adding some scrapbooking things on here soon.

I have no blog mission, I just type what is on my mind at the time. Boring maybe, but it is helping me keep focus on what is important in life. I have spent so much of my life overweight and in a shell to a certain degree. I want to get into shape and enjoy life more. I have wasted so much of my life being unhappy in this shell. I want to break out and explore!

wii active

I am loving the wii active. You really get a workout! They have a 30 day challenge which picks your activities for you and they change each day. When I am finished with that, I am usually tired, but not too tired because then I keep going and do a couple custom programs that I made up on it. I never thought I would be so into exercise, but I usually have to quit before I am ready. You know, dishes, laundry, the everyday stuff. I am so motivated! I thank God everyday for the motivation and energy to keep going.

Racing update

Poor Kelsey was not happy last night at the races. Blane didn't do so well. And the driver she dislikes the most, won. We agreed to take her next week when she is hoping he will be back on his game.

Theron came home from the beach today.

Justin went fishing.

Kelsey, Brian and I played on the Wii.

I love Sundays.

Jump starting again

After being overweight for 20 years, a month ago I got it into my head that I can do it. I can loose weight!! I have turned my daily routine around drastically. I would drink over a 2 lt. of Coca Cola every day. It was almost all I drank. I loved the refreshing taste (3 ice cubes in a glass, covered with Coca-Cola) and never thought I would be able to stop. Well, I did! I stopped all at once. I had a terrible headache that first week, but after that, nothign. I am not a person who could just slowly cut back. It was all or nothing. I drank "Crystal Light" pink lemonade for the first week and then just water. It has been 2 months and all I drink is water. I have not "cheated" with the drinks at all. The food on the other hand is another story. I started out doing the "Atkins" diet. I know it works but I don't know if the lack of fruit & vegatables is somthing I can live with. Even though I am overweight, I love those things. I was not a big junk food person. So, after 9 days and loosing 8 lbs on "Atkins", I switched to "Weight Watchers." That did not work for me. I don't know why. I know it works for so many. Now I am just a food mess. I don't know where to turn. "Atkins", "Weight Watchers" or just simply eat healthy and not have the pressure of a "DIET." I have lost a total of 12 lbs. so far. But, the last few weeks, nothing. Maybe even gained. I exercise every day. I use the "Wii Fit" and today I bought the new "Wii Active." I love it!!!!! It has many more activities than I thought it would have.
Last week I went Kyaking for the first time. That was a lot of fun. I have increased my physical activity so much. I am disappointed that I am not seeing more results. But, I am NOT giving up. I am enjoying exercise and activities and I never thought that would happen. I have always felt so embarrased by my appearance that I didn't let myself do activities for fear that people would judge me. I am letting go of that fear. They won't be lauging when I meet my goal. (which is so far away, I don't know if I can even put it in print. I will think about that.)

I am praying that I have the will power to continue this journey without too many stumbles along the way.

Feel free to leave comments of encouragement.